Hey you, it's me, Deb!
I'm so anxious!!! Today I've bought my first pregnancy test. I hope it will be negative... I'm so scared.
About a month ago (not exactly, idk, duh) I had sex with my boyfriend, but he used condom! But I'd started to bleed by my vagina for 4 complete days. I was so nervous because I didn't know what could it be, so I told my mum: she doesn't get mad, she understood me and try to comfort me. She told me that if we use protection, the possibility of getting pregnant was the lowest, so I calm down for a few days... but then I couldn't get out of my mind the fact of me having a baby inside. Hell no!! I'm so freaking young, it CAN'T be real... My period would start the 30th if I'm not pregnant, but I can't wait 'til that date, I need answers and I need them now. My hair is falling down, my nails are a disaster, all because of my anxious mood... Jesus Christ! I'll NEVER had sex with my boyfriend until I have the contraceptive pill. I won't be on risk anymore...
I'll do the pregnancy test on tomorrow's morning. I'll post the result, whichever it be. I don't feel so happy today... nope, nope, nope. This is too much for me, I can't handle it. I can wait to tomorrow for seeing that negative mark on the test's screen.
God, I beg you... save me.
Free love (always with condom)~
Daily (SCARED) Deb.
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