Hey you, it's me, Deb!
My period hasn't come yet... awesome. I'm scared again. Today I've watched TWO FILMS: "Tinkerbell and the legend of Neverbeast" and "I am the Juani". Tonight, I'll see "Dear John". I need to tell you that the Tinkerbell one made me cry more than "The Notebook". I'm serious. It's awesome if you like animals.
The other one made me remember my boyfriend. "I am the Juani" tells the story of Juani, a girl who lives on Barcelona and wants to be an actress. His boyfriend, Jonah, cheated on her and she caught him while he was fucking that bitch... and sadly, this is what made me remember my boyfriend.
I'm on a one year relationship and now we are happy as hell together, but when we were on our 2 months, he cheated on me with two girls. Yes, I know, I'm so dumb for forgiving him, but understand me, I was in love with him... and now, this thoughts are torturing me again.
I just can remember the moment when one of the girls texted me and told me that she was the new girlfriend of him, and told me to forget about him. I was shocked. At first I thought it was a joke and it was him from the mobile phone of a friend, but actually it was not. It was real. He cheated on me.
I couldn't break up with him, but I asked him for a time, only a week. It felt so weird, the fact of seeing him "online" and don't text him. But that was what I decided and I wanted to respect it... as you can imagine, I couldn't. After a day, we went back together, and we still, but sometimes I remember this and I can't stop crying. I know he loves me, and I love him too, but I think I'll never forget this... I have to live with it. Those are thoughts that I can't fight, I have to deal with it.
I'm not feeling good today... such a shit day.
I'll talk to you tomorrow, dears.
Free love (without cheat, please)~
Daily Sad Deb.
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