Today I've been stalking my ex boyfriend's Twitter, just for curiosity, and I saw some tweets that made me think. I saw that now he's getting depressed, and nobody is caring about it, just like when we started dating on 2012, and also a tweet said LITERALLY: "Are we in 2012 yet? Or 2013? I don't mind". Well, so I'm going to pull away all my fucking anger. This is just for you:
I know you'll never read this, but however I'm going to tell you what I think about you. Our relationship was a fucking very gorgeous shiny sparkling shit. Yeah, it could seem pretty from the outside, but only we both know how it really was. We were not in love, at least not you. Now, I know I wasn't in love with you, also. We were dating because of we need to be with other person to feel something, but, you know? You'll never diserve my feelings or even my tears. You were the shit of our relationship! You always wanted everything, you didn't gave me my space. You made me doubt about my best friend, just because you were jealous of him, even when I told you I'll never feel anything for him! But you still doing all this shit, and that's the reason of your fails on relationships. You're manipulator, cold, distant, observator. Your love is not even strong as the other person's one. You don't love anyone but yourself! And not even that, because YOU HATE YOURSELF!!! You're so self-destructive and that hurts the people who loves you, like your parents or your sister, OR ME WHEN I WAS YOUR GIRLFRIEND, but you NEVER think in the other person, it's only you!! When you started acting mad, you scared me, you made me cut, you made me feel like the worst person in the world just because I couldn't make you happy, but now I'm older I can realise that it was all YOUR FAULT, AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE LIKE THAT, BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO TREAT PEOPLE AS THAT, YOU TREAT THEM LIKE SHIT, LIKE OBJECTS OF YOUR OWN THAT YOU CAN CONTROL HOWEVER YOU FUCKING WANT, AND IS NOT LIKE THAT!! People need space, need to live their lives. Now I know that you'll never diserve me, and I've been a long time sad because of our breakup, but the only thing you really broke was my mind, not even my heart. You made me change, you made me a depressive person. But as I said, you don't diserve anything from me, so I'll be happy as hell while I watch how you burn yourself down in flames, and nobody is going to help you, because you are a fucking piece of shit.
Never yours,
Daily Deb.
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