24/08/2014.

Hey you, It's me, Deb.
Today has been a strange day. The yesterday's pill made me stay at bed 'til 12 o'clock. Jesus! But then, the walk with my dogs was great. We walked down the road and we came to a land. The older one was smelling something all the time, and in a moment, she started running so damn fast! I followed her with the younger one and we found her staring at a very big hole. I was a little bit exhausted because of the run, and the hole doesn't makes me so happy, so I decided to go back home.

The evening was so boring. I decided to watch a film, "Inside Out". I know, it's a childish film, but I wanted to see it. It was not as good as I thought, but it was not bad. It taught me that sadness is not that bad, and is a necessary emotion... so I let the sadness be. I started crying a river, and I couldn't stop. It was totally out of my control, but I can't help it.
These days I'm feeling so lonly, I'm not feeling happy at all. It's just like when I was diagnosed, and I'm scared of having that mental illnes... AGAIN!! PLEASE DON'T!

Well, I guess if I had it again is just because I diserve it... it will be okay.

Returning to the main theme, after crying, I went to the supermarket to get a bottle of juice (I am actually tired of water OMG), but while I was walking, I saw two men with a very strange looking. Sometimes, they just stand and seek for me with their eyes. I was so scared so I decided to ring my boyfriend... but he doesn't answer. I started sending him so much messages, and finally he answered me. He was worried about me. I told him what was going on and he gave me the advice of just stand in front of a house's door and make like if I was waiting the owners to open. It worked! The two of them left me alone. By the way, I came into the supermarket running to get my juice and then I went back home also running.

Then, I just walked my dogs out, closer to home, not like this morning. I don't want to get near that hole never again, huh!

So now I'm going to sleep. It's been a long day...

Free love!

Daily Deb~